i'm sorry

i think that the thing i've said the most since i've gotten here is "i'm sorry". i pretty much say it after every action. let's use some real-life examples to find out why:

i'm sorry i'm not wearing the hospital socks, but my feet were turning white on the bottom.
i'm sorry i need to bother you with changing my xbox games, but i can't sit up alone.
i'm sorry i need you to get my pain pump for the 4th time, but i keep knocking it off the bed.
i'm sorry it takes me ten minutes to get out of bed, with help, but sitting up tires me now.
i'm sorry i left you in a position to clean up after me, the meds i'm on give me diarrhea.
i'm sorry that sometimes i just push the button to talk to someone, i get lonely in here.
i'm sorry you visited me and i couldn't talk, they've had a tube down my throat all week.
i'm sorry you have to walk out in the cold at night, but i can't come visit you.
i'm sorry you had to write a second final, but i want to graduate eventually.
i'm sorry it hurts you to see me this way, but i can't get better any faster than this.
i'm sorry you have to drive up here every weekend and stay in a hotel room, but they keep scheduling surgeries on fridays, and they might need your consent in case something happens.
i'm sorry i have a urachal adenocarcinoma.
i'm sorry that i'm apologizing for having cancer.
i'm sorry that you have to tell me not to apologize.
most of all, i'm sorry that something about me, even if it's not me, is hurting you.